Please tell me you know how it is when you feel all is lost, not worthwhile and just downright frustrated with where you are on this pathway of life? I've hit my personal mountain along this pathway and have fought to get over it. I'm sure as I look back it will only actually be molehill, but it's been difficult all the same.
My anniversary has really made me look back over the last 10 years and think of how far we've come and just how much further we have to go. So, in honor of this retrospection, Chris and I have made some 5 year goals that are actually realistic. I'm very excited that we now have a plan ahead of us and working on the means to accomplish these goals. It will help us along this path we have chosen and help keep everyone happy along the way.
I've joined up with some ladies to lose weight. I'm making positive changes and having fun doing it. I've made a goal to run 2.5 miles by Sept 30th without stopping. This is HUGE since I'm so not a runner. I've wanted to "learn" to run ever since I got married. Chris ran Cross Country in HS and a little at BYU. I've been fascinated with the ever elusive "runner's high" and want to actually experience it. Anyway, this group is really helping me stay motivated and keep me honest about my own reality. I'm still gun-shy about the actual weight loss, but I'm resolved that making healthy food choices, actually feeding my body, and exercising will take care of the weight. I'm not actively pursuing any one diet, but focusing on good changes along the way. I've even impressed myself these past month with the changes I have made.
I was released from Young Women's on Sunday. It was bittersweet. I'm sooooo sad to not be actively involved with these wonderful YW, but I'm very excited for the "new blood". They will be excellent together and really take this program to the next level. What's been very hard about the whole experience is that I didn't receive a different calling. It just makes me feel like I wasn't doing a good job and was FIRED. I have hope it's just a matter of my calling not being available yet and not the fact that I did suck and He doesn't want me anywhere now. But seriously, I still have a testimony and will still attend church although it's at 2:30.
So as far as that mountain is concerned, it may acutally be a molehill and I've already moved on...
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I *just* got a new calling after being released from one a year and a half ago; I had never gone long calling-less. It was a really weird feeling, like the bishop didn't think I was good enough for any of the jobs. But then, I started enjoying my time just observing things and it worked out with the surprise pregnancy! You're not expecting a surprise pregnancy, are you?
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All right, Christi! If your interested in doing a Thanksgiving Turkey Trot 5k let me know. I always feel like having a goal (i.e. race) motivates me to keep going. My only goal is to finish every race I enter. I am no speed demon!
You can do it! I understand about feeling down about not getting a new calling right away. But seriously, enjoy the time that you get to take a breath and enjoy relief society and not having to worry about teaching a lesson or anything like unto it. It will end soon enough. LOL :) At least that is what I have learned in my life.
Hey there sunshine!! I am so excited for you goal. I am here for you if you just need a shoulder. I am so lucky to be able to call you friend. Thanks for putting up with me, it means a lot. You are amazing!!! House Bunny here we come. Yes, Swiss Days was awesome!!
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